zaty

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You’d like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You’ll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You’re feeling self centered.

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you’re Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That’s because you’re a natural at seduction. You don’t realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You’re the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life. You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme. You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends. Express yourself a little bit more, and you’ll be surprised where it takes you!

from blogthings.com

The Sleepover

I just got back from my cousin’s house a few hours ago, as last night my sister & I went to sleepover. She’s one of my closest cousin, nd since her age difference with me is about 3 years, we get along really well. Well, her personality is slightly (ok, so maybe very much) different from mine, and she likes hiphop and branded merchandise, for instance, that, to put it simply, I don’t really like. Hehe. But we get along fine and our differences don’t really bother us. She’s cool, and I really love her. =)

Well, anyhow, as I said, I went to sleepover at her place yesterday. Her mom and her drove to my house to pick my sister & I up, because my family doesn’t know the exact route to her house in Cheras (we don’t go out much), so it was cool of them to offer the ride. When we arrived, we crowded the kitchen and decided to make sushis! =D My aunt & this cousin of mine are really "kitchen people", in m own terms, that are basically people who not exactly devote their times in the kitchen because they have to, but because they can (read: they’re awesome at cooking) and because they like it (read: they’re fantastic at baking cakes+cookies). So my cousin prepared the sushi rice and added the vinegar and salt, but somehow she accidentally added a wee bit too much, so the rice tasted.. uh.. a bit odd. But it was still edible-looking/tasting, albeit. ^_^; Then somehow everyone’s excitement died down (can’t remember why, really), and instead of rolling the rice into seaweed sheets, we decided to just eat the rice in bowls and cut up the sewaeeds+crabsticks. So we did. It was a bit strange, as my sister & I never did that before (and later it turns out Rina never ate like that as well, lol). SO yeah. It was goooood. =9 Sushi rocks! ^_^

Later we plopped ourselves in front of the tv and after I over-excitedly (hah.. the embarassment..) found out she had a ‘Get Over It’ VCD, we watched it and sang along with the songs. 

MADE ME MISS 2 DINAMIK AS HELL! TT_____TT (remember Phantom of the Opera? )

Not too long after we viewed the 1st cd, then my uncle took over the TV because he had an very important appointment with it : World Cup was on. *slaps forehead while laughing*

Ah~.. the World Cup fever is back. =T Heheh.

Well, so that’s that. SO us girls went back upstairs and chatted. My sister surrendered to slumber at about 1am, tops, while Rina & I blabbered about various stuff till about 3am. It was tiiiiiiring. As hell. But it was fun. =)

The Life of a Teacher

So today after we woke up (about 10am 0_____0) we headed to a not-so-near petrol station (without bathing, might I add ^_^;;;) and had our breakfast at its On The Run mini-cafe-cum-store. Blah3… then we came back and my aunt got out something for us to keep ourselves busy : her work. XD She’s an English+Art teacher for some primary school, and she had to examine the exam papers of her students for athe exam before the school holidays. And so we examined some of her papers for her, because she forgot (or more like, almost forgot ) about them. SO I had experienced a very small portion of the life of a teacher just now. How hard it is to not be surprised of some stuents’ answers, and empathising/sympathising those who showed some effort (to no avail), and witnessed some students who are just hopeless because they’re not interested in studying. So I would definitely call the experience of examining exam papers as enlightening, although it was a primary school-level exam.

So I guess, what I learnt, was that life’s not that easy. My Aunt, as she sent me back home at about 10pm just ow, remarked how teachers shouldn’t control students, but cope with them. Let them breathe, but don’t let them stray. Be strict, but not too demanding. Students need to feel secure and trust teachers before they give their cooperation and participate well in class. It’s a reciprocal thing, really. The teacher must ensure a good, helpful, and proactive environm,ent in order to arouse the students’ interests. Without proper guidance and help, some students will just ignore the subject completely, especially those who think education is useless and won’t help them in life.

So, being a teacher-to-be, I wish to incorporate my aunt’s advice in being a "good" teacher, because teaching is not an easy job, but it is definitely worthwhile. As the current Literature teacher of mine, Pn. husniah, remarks, the best thing about being a teacher is when you accidentally meet one of your ex-students, when they are all grown-up and successful, and they immediately recognise and acknowledge you as their teacher. That’s when all the years of hard work, patience, and persistence becomes worthwhile.

Hope

I guess it’s true. Sometimes I think, as I get older, I would like to be one who gives back to the community for everything they’re given to me. For example, being in KMS to take my Alevels, currently. Malaysians have used their hard-earned mobney to pay taxes which are channeled into many organisations, and has a part in maintaining my life in college as my scholarship. When I think about it, the only appropriate way of returning this ‘favor’ is only by servicing to them again afetr I get my degree, godwilling. I guess, that’s when I will feel fulfilled, because I know, that I Aam VERY lucky to be here. I always doubt whether MARA made the right decision of choosing me over other (more eligible) candidates, but if God has given me this opportunity as a blessing, the only way I could repay this was to be thankful to Him and to society, for partly funding my ‘jihad’ to acquire knowledge and to give it back to them when the time comes.

Now, I’m not saying that I can’t wait to be a teacher, but I hope that I’ll finish my studies and get my degree as soon as possible so that I can help my community as soon as I can.

Your Existing Situation
Active, outgoing, and restless. Feels frustrated by the slowness with which events develop along the desired lines. This leads to irritability, changeability, and lack of persistence when pursuing a given objective.

Your Stress Sources
Has lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties, which appear to her as deliberate opposition. Stands her ground, but is subjected to intolerable pressure. Needs cooperation and emotional fulfillment and feels that, in their absence, there is nothing she can do to improve the current situation. Wants to ‘get away from it all’ quickly.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
Tries to escape from her problems, difficulties, and tensions by abrupt, headstrong, and ill-considered decisions. Desperately seeking a way to escape, and there is danger of reckless behavior to the point of self-destruction.

Your Actual Problem
Anxiety and a restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled emotional requirements, have produced considerable stress. She reacts by putting this down to a total lack of understanding on the part of others, and by adopting a scornful and defiant attitude.

Your Actual Problem #2
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. Her inability to enforce her will causes her to over-react in stubborn defiance and by assigning to others all the blame for her own failures.

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Am I sweet?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I ugly?-
Am I psycho?-
Am I annoying?-
Am I a good person?-

2)******Would You******
Hug me?-
Miss me if i was gone?-
Listen to my problems?-
Hug me if i cried?-
Be a good friend?-

3)******If You Could…******
Give me a new name it would be?-
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-

4)******Just A Few Questions******
What do u like about me?-
What do u hate about me?-
What is my best quality?-

1. Who are you?-
2. Do you have a crush on me?-
3. Are we good friends?-
4. Do we know each other in real life?-
5. Am I hot?-
6. Is my avatar hot? (oO)-
7. Will you put this in your journal so i can answer these questions about you!?-

of meehoon and a-levels. 0_o

I like a new guy.

Well, not exactly THE new guy, but a different guy.

but I did like him before, but it kinda vanished for a while, during the time I was freakishly addicted to Mr.Archie. What the ell was I thinking?

This is so a teenage issue. Oh well. I’m not getting any younger, might as well indulge in these minor nonsensical silly things before I’m too old to not have the chance to do it anymore, eh?

Anyhoo.. this guy, my friends and I refer to him as MeeHoon. Its his name, inverted, with a few additional letters. 0_0 Well, he seems like a nice guy. I like nice guys. And he’s pretty cute. But cute’s not exactly the quality I’m totally going for in a guy. Hmm. He has a nice smile.

He has nice teeth too. I want nice teeth, but I dont. Hmm.. I’m not making much sense, am I? LoL.

Alright. So I now have a new obssession. I wonder how long THIS one will last. *shrug*

Anyhooooooo Alevels in around 6 weeks, Trials in about 3. Whooopteedoo.
*sarcasm, sarcasm*

How I want that darn 3 A’s. How I so want them.

Resolutions:
1. Study your ass off. Just frickin do it. For your parents, for the rakyat (who made all this possible), for your religion, for your race, for my country, for your future students, and also (if possible) for yourself.
2. Prevent yourself from daydreaming. By all means.
3. Don’t succumb to sadness & misery because of your sucky grades. Try to be (or act) happy.
4. Sleep less, eat less, work more.
5. Pray to God consistently, and be a better Muslim, daughter, friend, sister, person, citizen, girl, etc.
6. Don’t be too tense. Don’t be too relaxed. Take care of your health. Can’t afford to be sick during these critical times.
7. Stop making resolutions you don’t think you can keep up with.

Hmm.

Please pray for my success. Thank you.
Have a nice week, people. =)

You know, sometimes you can be so caught up with your emotions that you fail to see a certain event in a mature/rational way, and right after, you regret what you said/did because of your carelessness. In other words, you act before you think. Being governed by my heart rather than thoughts, I almost always get myself in trouble for this. I’ve done so many things I wish I didn’t do, but as Anna Nalick notes, "life’s like an hourglass glued to the table". You can’t turn back time. Ever. Well, unless some mad scientist comes up with some crazy machine that can turn back time, of course (read : Back to the Future, remember? <img src="smile.gif">). Well, some things, I guess, are just meant to happen. Whether you like it or not.

Being a Muslim, I truly believe that humans are pretty much controlled by the hands of God, by fate. Like deaths, births, etc. There is also the influence of freewill in our lives, but only to a certain extent. Things happen for a reason.

I guess this entry is kidna going round and round leading to no converging point. I was actually meaning to write about a broken heart a few years ago that hasn’t healed, because I was reminded by a few songs I could relate to. It’s mentally suffocating sometimes when I remember it, all the could-have-beens and whatnot. But I know that if things DID work out, I probably wouldn’t have ended up where I am now. Things would be radically different. But I guess from that experience, I’ve learnt that surrendering your heart, fully, to someone is idiotic and reckless. That’s what I did. I gave away my heart and it smashed into tinypieces that flows in my blood even until now.

Never ever give someone all of your heart. Keep some of it for yourself.
Like I said to a friend once, "rejection is nothing compared to betrayal".

Gah. It’s been years, but I can’t get over it. I hate myself for it, I hate him for it, and my head becomes so scrambled whenever I thought of it, or if someone  intentionally/unintenionally reminds me of it. It’s frustrating when so many regrets and inaudible apologies run through your head but everyone and everything around you seem like nothing’s happened.

It just hurts when I think about it.

Songs to cry to:
-Here Without You
-Everytime
-Someday We’ll Know

http://bash.org

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IronChef Foicite: well, there’s a lot of reasons
IronChef Foicite: i mean, roses only last like a couple weeks
IronChef Foicite: and that’s if you leave them in water
IronChef Foicite: and they really only exist to be pretty
IronChef Foicite: so that’s like saying
IronChef Foicite: "my love for you is transitory and based solely on your appearance"
IronChef Foicite: but a potato!
IronChef Foicite: potatos last for fucking ever, man
IronChef Foicite: in fact, not only will they not rot, they actually grow shit even if you just leave them in the sack
IronChef Foicite: that part alone makes it a good symbol
IronChef Foicite: but there’s more!
IronChef Foicite: there are so many ways to enjoy a potato! you can even make a battery with it!
IronChef Foicite: and that’s like saying "i have many ways in which I show my love for you"
IronChef Foicite: and potatos may be ugly, but they’re still awesome
IronChef Foicite: so that’s like saying "it doesn’t matter at all what you look like, I’ll still love you"

LMAO. I always kenw roses weren’t as perfect as a symbol for true love. I knew it! XD

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#126218 +(5255)- [X]

<WiLdSeXyPrInCeSs> i luv guyz where would they be wifout us gals???
<XeNoX> Still in the Garden Of Eden you gullible bitch.

LMAO
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#368808 +(5324)- [X]

<@David> Yay I get laid today! Been a month…. needing it by now
<@Sony> ………..
<@Sony> TMI TMI TMI
<@David> Only a few hundred pounds but its better than nothing
<Malpine> Thanks for the info
<@David> eh?
<@David> damn i meant PAID
<@David> I get PAID today
<@David> dammit

LMAO XD

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docsigma2000: jesus christ man
docsigma2000: my son is sooooooo dead
c8info: Why?
docsigma2000: hes been looking at internet web sites in fucking EUROPE
docsigma2000: HE IS SURFING LONG DISTANCE
docsigma2000: our fucking phone bill is gonna be nuts
c8info: Ooh, this is bad. Surfing long distance adds an extra $69.99 to your bill per hour.
docsigma2000: …!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK
docsigma2000: is there some plan we can sign up for???
docsigma2000: cuz theres some cool stuff in europe, but i dun wanna pauy that much
c8info: Sorry, no. There is no plan. you’ll have to live with it.
docsigma2000: o well, i ccan live without europe intenet sites.
docsigma2000: but till i figure out how to block it hes sooooo dead
c8info: By the way, I’m from Europe, your chatting long distance.
** docsigma2000 has quit (Connection reset by peer)

XD XD XD and no, "long distance surfing" doesnt exist. and dfinitelty not at $60+, haha.

…tis funny, this site. go check it out. XD

i like:

A
…rt
…ccesories
…ccents, esp. British

B
…lack
…lack&white
…oys

C
…rimson hair
…ats
…ushions
…reativity
…rafts

D
…esign
…ashing good looks
…aydreaming
…eviantArt

E
…tiquette
…xpressionism
…mo hair
…dward Scissorhands

F
…ood
…unny stuff
…amily
…riends
…ashion

G
…iggling
…oogling
…azing at the stars
…oth+lolita fashion
…od, of course

H
…appy looks on people’s faces
…ugs

I
…Islam
…Ikea

J
…ohnny Depp
…olly good time

K
…nives that are sharp

L
…aughing
…ooking at gorgeous homosapiens
…omography

M
…aking art
…aking friends
…aking dreams

N
…ames that are unique

O
…ggling
…range juice

P
…eople-watching
…ersonalities that shine thru
…hotography

Q
…ueer eye for the straight guy

R
…est in Pieces by Saliva
…easons
…ational thoughts

S
…aying "supercalifragilisticaspialadocious" and watch people stare at me with amazement/confusion/fear in their eyes
…aturday mornings
…mell of clean, scented, dry towels

T
…esting myself with online quizzes
…im Burton

U
…nnormality
…niqueness

V
…ivacious attitudes
…ector art

W
…inning
…ishing
…riting my thoughts

X
… …as the beginning letter of a word.

Y
…ellow
…ummy food

Z
…any things

written lethargically out of boredom.

List of not-so-recent movies I want to watch: (not in any order)
* - for movies I’ve seen and want to watch again

1. Edward Scissorhands
2. 8 Mile
3. Big Fish
4. It the Clown *
5. Grease series
6. Back to the Future series *
7. Ever After * (i adore this movie)
8. W.S’s Romeo & Juliet
9. Sin CIty
10. 50 First Dates
11. Kung Fu Hustle
12. Sleepy Hollow *
13. Prozac Nation * (not when I’m feeling down, tho..)
14. Get Over It *
15. City of Angels *
16. A Walk to Remember *
17. 10 Things I Hate About You *
18. Nightmare Before Christmas *
19. The Princess Diaries *
20. The Green Mile *

Newer movies- just released or almost: (not in any order)
1. Memoirs of a Geisha
2. Cilok
3. Gubra
4. Brokeback mountain

Will add later when boredom evel increases.

Till another time, world. TTFN.

Was 2005 a good year for you?
I dont think so. Not really.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Meeting old schoolmates was fun, even tho it WAS when we were taking our SPM results…

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Too many.. but I would say falling for a guy from coll. And also right now, family thing going on.

Where were you when 2005 began?
Home, watching tv+being in my room doodling+sms-ing ppl. I’m a boring, pathetic person who doesn’t like to waste herself at parties during New Year’s, so sue me. =P

Who were you with?
Family

Where will you be when 2005 ends?
Home?

Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
Hahaha. What do you know..my family, I guess.

Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
Errm.. not quite. =7

Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
The usual. Lose weight. Increase faith+knowledge. Putting more effort in every work. Hate+love less. Stop playing so much. Try to love myself.

Did you fall in love in 2005?
I’m not sure. Maybe more like stumbled into.

If yes, with who?
Archie from college. Only close friends at coll knows. He doesn’t. Nobody else does too and I wish for it to stay that way.

If yes, do they know?
Hahaha. After all the accidental signs, I sure hope not.

You regret it?
Definitely.

Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
No.

Did you make any new friends in 2005?
But of course. =)

Who are your favorite new friends?
new? iqa, kak long, yuyu, and the rest fo the tesl ppl, bdak2 engineering like nadiah, torax, far, skin, and bdak2 medic, etc. shane, sadiya, rhonda, dave, and many other dA people too. <3

What was your favorite month of 2005?
June.

Did you travel outside of the Malaysia in 2005?
Yesh.

How many country have you traveled in 2005?
1

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
Do cats count?

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes. Qber-mates & Melawati-mates.

What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
Many.

What were your favorite songs in 2005?
It’s not a fashion statement… - MCR
Bury me deep inside your heart - HIM
Best of you - Foo Fighters
Sugar we’re going down - Fall Out Boy
(among many others..)

What was your favorite record in 2005?
3 cheers for sweet revenge

How many concerts did you see in 2005?
0

Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
No.

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
Dont drink.

Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
No.

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Existing because I’m a nuisance to everyone.

Did you treat anyone badly in 2005?
I try not to. For those I don’t like I’ll just treat them normally but I do try to avoid them. I don’t like arguing with those I dislike, it’s tiring.

Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
I can’t think of anything major, so I’m guessing no.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005, when?
The start of the A-Levels course and work my friggin ass off. If I have to get through this depressing college phase, might as well have a good outcome in the end, ey?

What are your plans for 2006?
Succeed. And be happier. And be more thankful towards everyone, everything, every day. And stop being immature. And to stop being a paranoid freak. Thankyou.